Life Without Parole is one of those stories that continues to amaze me. Not because of the content, or the idea in my head, but with how it is forming up. It’s the first story where I found myself struggling to add words unlike the usual knife twisting gut reaction to cutting words. It is also unlike any of the other stories I’ve written in that it’s mostly drama minus the usual action scenes that typically populate my stories. No spies, no killing except for what the bad guy is in jail for. Essentially Life Without Parole is my enigma in a way.
Well, sure enough, it’s surprised me again.
Starting on Friday, I am taking vacation for a full week so that I can enjoy my birthday in peace (no work is always peaceful) and I am planning on making it a personal writing retreat. While the kids are at the youth center, my husband is at work, I’m going to spend 5 glorious days sitting in front of my computer writing. I can’t wait.
In anticipation of that, however, I’m doing some prep work. I’m planning on working on both Ancient Magic which is still in the first draft stage and Life Without Parole which is… was… in the fifth draft stage. Figured I’d break my day in half between creation and editing. The prep work was reading the manuscript and boy was I in for a surprise. For all the stories that I have finished, short or novel, I have enjoyed and liked all of them no matter how much time has passed from when I started to the fifth draft.
I broke it out, got four chapters in and realized… I hate it.
Okay, maybe hate is a bit too strong. I really dislike the way it reads which is interesting, but honestly, if I’m bored with it, my readers would be to. So now I find myself going back through my notes from when I wrote it so I can figure out a different approach. Sigh. I mean, really? REALLY?
Has this ever happened to anyone else? I don’t want to scrap it because the story is good, but I’m also not sure if I want to rework it all over again. I’d love advice, suggestions, ideas… comments????